DREAM 1: James and I were at a rock-climbing shop, and he got in trouble for lighting up a joint. I remember snowboarding down large slopes.
Later on, I remember walking around in a back empty house. James and Matt had already left to go pick up their mom from the airport - from Puerto Rico. There was a girl they had invited over that was sitting on the couch on her phone. I didn't know who the fuck she was, but I was starting to feel uneasy. I started looking through James phone, he found messages to whom I was sure was this girl. I just tried to be nice and was like "Oh, I ate too much pizza...stuffed crust. So, I'm going up stairs to go lie down."
[I assume, get extremely jealous, and bottle negativity inside of me just to shrug it off and become passive aggressive. I am insecure that James will talk to other girls, yet I should trust in him and trust in his loyalty to me.]
DREAM 2: I was going to college parties with James and friends. We broke into an unfinished dorm to hang out and party. I go to use the bathroom inside and there's construction all over the ground. The toilet wasn't even finished, which made it awkward to go to the bathroom. I come out, and there's two new girls and one guy that came in. One of the girls was smaller, the other two were cubby. The smaller girl started to draw attention to herself by shaking her ass in front of all the guys. She pulled her shorts up to her thighs so they could see her ass cheeks. I was baffled, and pointed to her saying, "What the fuck, why??". She proceeded to get on top of James and lap dance on him. Instead of doing something about it, I flipped my shit, ran outside and started bawling. "I can't do this, I can't do this." I started chanting to myself. James chased after me and asked what was wrong. I told him I couldn't handle shit like that and that it wouldn't be such a big deal if we were just friends, but since we were in a relationship, it definitely bothered me. [ Also, at some point I remembered the place in my dreams where I'd practice rock climbing. It was a small wall against a lot of workout equipment and I was able to spot out my favorite route.]
[I believe I have an irrational fear of James doing things with other girls, and I don't know why. He's never given me a reason not to trust him. He's with me 24/7 and he's loyal to me - so where is this fear coming from? I think I also miss rock-climbing... I should make it a point to go to the gym in Portland sometime.]
DREAM 3: Gram and Brian tried to open a doggy daycare, failed, then tried opening a cat daycare. Mom and Jesse had gotten back together cause she said Jason kicked and beat her, and Jose wasn't that great either. So her and Jesse tried opening the doggy daycare too. (Honestly mom and Jesse kept switching back and forth to gram and Brian - as if they were the same people). Mom made some ghetto signs, and I offered help being that I had worked at a doggy daycare before. They were even using Kennel Master. They had a few customers and made about $150 in the first hour. Gram and Brian were sitting outback with a picnic table frying up food and drinks. There was a girl hanging out just standing outback, everyone says hello to her as if they know who she is. I don't know her, or know her name, but I've see her before. She has dark brown or black short hair, or possibly it was tied back. She is small and skinny in figure with small breasts. She has a black shirt on with neon paint splatter, with short black spandex on. On her left arm there was a swirly red tribal tattoo.
Later on I go to the orthadontics, and all I wanted was my retainer out, but they had to make it so god damn difficult. That girl was there again... just standing off to the side. I was required to pass and take a test to continue on for them to work on my mouth. I freaked out and yelled "Why the fuck do I need to take a test? I could understand if it was schooling to become an Orthadontist." The girl in the back made a comment about me being a dropout... and I was like: "Yes, hello! I'm the dropout! Made it two years strong. Nice to meet you!" All sarcasticly. She kept a cool look on her face. Who is she?
[First off, I think I am regretting dropping out of college - even though I wasn't happy there. I miss the freedom and the friends I made there. I think the girl with black hair could represent my confidence. She is just watching my frustration with a cool lock on her face. How do I become her?]
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