The Deer & Lost Child

I spent my time playing the roll of a deer & a lost kid. The deer was a trouble maker to it's pack. A kid wandered into the woods one day & got lost. The group of deer found him, & had the trouble maker deer take him to find his parents. I spent my time as the deer taking the child back. I would sneak quietly through the trees making sure no hunters were around. I had to eventually make my way by a log cabin. There was a guy, & he had a rottweiler attatched to a leash. The dog was pointing, & barking cause he could smell me. The man was ignoring the dog cause he was on the phone. I was hiding behind a four-wheeler until it was safe to move. The man walked up & was super close to me. The dog sniffed around until we locked eyes. The dog nearly dropped his jaw. I sprinted as fast as I could into the forest & didn't stop. Eventually a car saw us on the road, & pulled over. They took me & the boy into the car. This is where I switched over to the boy, although now I was a girl. I was older now, & petting the deer to thank him. I then ended up going shopping with the people. I was in search of grout in the store so I could make mosaics, but I couldn't find any. The store was huge, & had mostly Disney pushies, & items for sale.

Psychotic James

FIRST DREAM: Sarah from college had me try this hot sauce from Afghanistan with burritos, & it was amazing. I was hanging out with different girlfriends, watching movies & eating food.

SECOND DREAM: All four of us were living together: Becca, James, Matt, & I. I had forgotten about the pet snake we had, it had been a month since I fed or watered him, so it was time to take care of him. I took him out of the cage & he plopped out of my hands & slithered under the bed. I was finally able to get him & put him back. Next thing I know I see Matt & his friends come up behind me. I could hear his friends in the back saying, "Go on tell her!". I was thinking ummm, what is all this about? He said, "Hey, do you want to go for a walk, I want to talk to you." I said sure, & quickly slipped some of Becca's shoes on that were slightly uncomfortable. I walked outside & waited, but he was taking forever. I opened the door back open & he was still standing there. His friends: "Go on don't be a pussy!". He looked at me & said, "I don't deserve a girl like you." So I figured he was about to tell me that he liked me, but then James stumbled around the corner. He was drunk, & was very demanding on what was going on. Matt walked him back to our room, & tried to put him to sleep. When he came back out & was ready to walk, I decided to put some real boots on. I ended up taking too long to get ready, & I woke up from the dream.

DREAM THREE: Well, I was still curious about what Matt was going to tell me in my dream, so I went back to sleep with that in mind. It didn't go so well. James was furious & was going on a killing spree. He said if I liked Matt he'd kill me. He said that in order to prove that I didn't I needed to come kill with him. So we talked a bunch of creatures into coming on a walk with us, & he was going to set up a trap for them. I just went along with it, but had intentions for saving the creatures. I was able to remove one of the traps, but I didn't catch the other. A sharp blade fell down from the ceiling & stabbed a cute talking bunny. I instantly pulled the blade from his tummy & picked him up. He was drowsy when talking, & I told him to just stay with me. I wrapped tissue & tape around him to try to stop the bleeding. James questioned what I was doing, so I made up an excuse that I was prolonging the suffering. I laid him back down, & blood starting seeping from his mouth. He was dead. I was crying, & wanted to start back at the beginning. I was able to reset my dream back to when we were in the house when James was questioning me. I told him that I thought Matt liked me. He grabbed a knife. And I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom. Matt was sitting in the bathtub on his phone [but with clothes on]. I was sobbing & told him that James had a knife & wanted to kill me. I sat by the door waiting for him to find me. I heard a knock, & there he was. Except he sounded a little more calm. "I just want to talk." He said. "I don't have a knife." I opened the door & he came in. I explained to him that I liked being around Matt because he wasn't mean to me like James, & I didn't like how James could be mean. He wrapped his arms around me, & was thankful that I told the truth. He said he'd work on it. We walked outside to see my mom standing behind a table. She ended up yelling at James to be nicer to me, & I told him that if something didn't change then I would be leaving.

The Little Girl Inside

Me & James decided to go back to school, although we ended up going back to my high school in Glenns Ferry. I realized it was pointless for me since I had graduated high school, but dropped out of college. So I would wander the hallways waiting for James to end class. At one point I was sitting on a bench & a little girl with blonde hair sat down next to me. She only looked about 7 years old, but was acting 17. She was slouched & all depressed. "All I need is a good man in my life!" She said. & I'm thinking, what the fuck kid you're only seven? "All I need is a boyfriend." She said again. [I'm shocked at this point because I realize this little girl is me...] I looked at her & told her, "Honey, you don't need a man, you're so young, you have plenty of years to go! In fact, I'm 20 & I already wish to be single again." She brightened up, and smiled, "You're right, I don't need a man!". After talking to the girl I wandered back down the hallway to find James. He was in a class with my leader, Becca, from trail crew. They started hanging out a lot more, & I got incredibly jealous. All three of us would hang out, & I would hover around feeling unwelcomed or like I was being an annoyance. [I am quite sure I have social anxiety, & one of my biggest fears is being left out or becoming an annoyance to someone... especially people I love.] Next thing I knew, Trump was living with us & was trying to explain how he was going to make America great again.

Royalty

Me & James were royalty & owned a castle like place. We were making sure our guests were having a good time. They were eating a ton of chips & cheese dip. I wanted to vaccum our room, but we never had time for ourselves, only the people. I was flying around on the top part of a plain, & lived in many different states.

Evil Politics / Dog Grooming

DREAM 1: Sam was in my dream with James & everyone. Politicians were fighting for president, if I didn't vote for a certain Republican canadate this guy was going to kill me. I tried performing this ritual or something... clamped this thing on my finger & ended up ripping the whole nail off.

DREAM 2: James & I were working at a doggy grooming place. James got yelled at by Will to work harder. While everyone was taking the ass chewing, I just started up my station & started washing dogs again.

How To Be Content?

DREAM 1: Fell asleep at 8p.m., it is now 12a.m. just got up & realized in my dream the entire time I was trying to get in contact with Noah from college on instagram. [woke up realizing that I already follow him on instagram] I'm not even sure why. I had also offended Becca & Kelly for calling my shot glasses small / little & content. Also, vaguely remember me and James sitting in a field with a big tree. I was struggling with becoming content and aware of the present. I was sitting by James & complaining, asking him what to do. He told me the answer was to smoke pot. I just started throwing a huge fit & was whinning how expensive it'd be, & how it hurts my throat. I think he's right, I just refuse to be happy.

DREAM 2: Me and James were driving around. I yelled at him for always driving past our house to Beacon St. Instead of turning on a quicker rode. [I think Beacon St. is actually a rode in Boise] We were parked at some boat docks, & we witnessed someone drive their truck straight into the water & sink. James freaked out & called 911. We watched as he escaped & swam to the surface. Suddenly a group of guys were surrounding him & asking him all sorts of questions. He said he blamed Bill O' Riley & was going to get him in trouble. All the guys seemed to like me. They were gathered around me touching me & talking to me. I just watched James walk off in the distance. One old man said to James, "Are you not worried about your girlfriend?" [Deep down I must be worried that James won't stick up & protect me]

DREAM 3: Volleyball! I was on a team & the coach was from my old team back in High School.

Hammett Reunion

The entire dream James & I were looking for a place to get it on. We tried to do it in a store & we tried to do it in my car, at one point we started but had to move on. We eventually came back to the house in Hammett again (being in Hammett is becoming a reacurring theme) It was night time, & a ton of people were outside hanging out. Jesse was stumbling around being an obnoxious drunk, while mom & the kids were just standing there. My ex's were both at my house too. Jacob & Tim. Jesse then called up Nick told him to come over & that I would pick him up. I texted him & he asked if it would be weird to come over since I'm with James. I told him it didn't really matter since my ex's were at the house too. We all just hung out and talked like everything was chill.