Me & James decided to go back to school, although we ended up going back to my high school in Glenns Ferry. I realized it was pointless for me since I had graduated high school, but dropped out of college. So I would wander the hallways waiting for James to end class. At one point I was sitting on a bench & a little girl with blonde hair sat down next to me. She only looked about 7 years old, but was acting 17. She was slouched & all depressed. "All I need is a good man in my life!" She said. & I'm thinking, what the fuck kid you're only seven? "All I need is a boyfriend." She said again. [I'm shocked at this point because I realize this little girl is me...] I looked at her & told her, "Honey, you don't need a man, you're so young, you have plenty of years to go! In fact, I'm 20 & I already wish to be single again." She brightened up, and smiled, "You're right, I don't need a man!". After talking to the girl I wandered back down the hallway to find James. He was in a class with my leader, Becca, from trail crew. They started hanging out a lot more, & I got incredibly jealous. All three of us would hang out, & I would hover around feeling unwelcomed or like I was being an annoyance. [I am quite sure I have social anxiety, & one of my biggest fears is being left out or becoming an annoyance to someone... especially people I love.] Next thing I knew, Trump was living with us & was trying to explain how he was going to make America great again.
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